Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Hey first day of school,

So how was your first day of school ?

Mine suck, suck totally.

That I may resort to crying one litre of tears ..

So much for looking forward to school to see my classmates,
so much for telling myself to concentrate,
so much for telling myself to work hard,
so much for telling myself to pay attention in class,
so much for saying I'll score well for my Os,
so much for trying to set myself some new year resolution though I couldn't think of one,
so much for preparing myself to school.

So much for this, so much for that, but what's the damn use ?


I seriously am sick of school.
Right, it is the first day yet I'm sick & tired of school already. Surprise eh? Everyone knows I love my class, I love my classmates, I love everybody. I'm the happy one, but yes not now.

Guess what, some new damn quiet girl came into our class.
Oh such a spoiler, I'm sorry but I don't like people who doesn't talk. Not even a word, even when I tried explaining things. I'm just irritated. She is just like another Hakimah. Please, talk talk TALK. I know I sound a little mean or something, but I'm really irritated about people not speaking a word.


'Hey, I'm Jolene Joy Princess'

I don't like Mr Teo. No, he said he'll get me my partner. Thank you for getting me such a fabulous partner. Thank you for only separating me from my friends, thank you so much! I appreciate that alot(NOT). How great eh. How much I want to study with them, yea, change my seat only after one term. See how well I do first huh. I don't know what makes Mr Teo thinks that I'm able to study at such an environment. Getting me such a wonderful 'partner' he called.

He don't know what is it like. Right, I don't believe you feel how I feel, even if you put your damn self into my damn shoe. You'll never understand, that's how selfish people are. I don't talk alot, seriously. I don't know what makes you think so. Even if I did talked, it was because I was asked a question, & not answering others is a very very rude thing, & I hate people being rude. I can't be rude myself. Oh go away.

I wanted to sit with _______ very very much. Because I think that _______ is the only one that is able to help me in my work. Seriously, yes. Right, like what WeiShan said, I got the consolation prize. Oh damn the consolation. You suck, alot.

Maybe the teacher himself thinks that I disrupt people's learning. Oh check the facts right then.
I'm still pissed off about the seating arrangement __ yes, fucking pissed.

But neverthless,

I guess I'm still able to force a smile in front of you.

I knew 2008 isn't going to be a great year. Look at the start of it, what kind of state I am in. What happens at the start of the year, happens for the rest of the year. Thank you very much for putting me in such state. Thank you, I appreciate it(NOT).

I don't look forward to going to school anymore. No more.

Yes, O levels isn't a year away. It is only months away.

I thought I didn't really mind rude people. But I actually do mind. Especially those who give me those rude tone & rude kind of sentence. It actually bothers me alot, really alot. Some more like, I am at fault kind, yet I don't see why. And all I can do is just keep quiet about me & trying very hard to pretend that I did not hear anything(or are you against me?). Oh wait no, this isn't PMS. But its just I'm really bothered about people being rude. Maybe it is just you, not about rudeness, but just you, plainly you.

So much for wanting to come back to school, so much for everything.
Hahaha, right for everything which turned out to be something really nasty.
What can I say ? Do I even have a damn say ? No, hell no, fuck no.

Right, I got fucking no say now. I can't voice out anything. Hahaha, I know I'm going to laugh at myself for getting so upset over this matter weeks or even months later. But yea, just so much for all, turned out to be like dirt.

Lets just laugh at it all when it is totally over.

No Joy, you need to be independent & prove to them wrong. Damn wrong, so damn wrong. I got great ambition, & great dream. Cause I dare to dream.

Soon it is going to be Joleneism/Joyism/Princessism.

I'll reply tags soon.
For those who reads till here, thank you for listening to my rants because I am seriously upset about it): Grrrrrrrrr. Damnszxzxzxz. Nevermind, lets all be happydoveyyyyyy :D

Joy loves yoooooou :D

Let's just hope tomorrow will be a better day! 明天要把今天的忘掉.
Okayyyy, happpydoveyyyyy! I feel much better after ranting lol!

Bye loves!

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